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Max Antonucci

Journalist turned full-time coder, part-time ponderer.

Notes

Personal quips and nonsensical snippets

Sometimes I want to write things that can't work as a blog post, I don't want to lose amid Twitter, or don't make any sense. For all these streams of conscious, I have my Notes. They have lots of colors to match how across the board they can get.

Keep scrolling to read my notes in order.

March 3, 2021

Here’s something you should know today: there's a shark called the Ghost Shark, and the male's forehead has retractable genitals.

You may ask why I'm writing about a shark with retractable forehead genitals. To that, I say, why aren't you writing about a shark with retractable forehead genitals. Indeed, why aren't you looking for as many reasons as possible to repeat the phrase "retractable forehead genitals?"

I am because I know how to embrace life!

Thank you for taking some time for the Ghost Shark with retractable forehead genitals. Please go about your day.

February 27, 2021

Many themes in the book "Anxious People" had me feeling...anxious. But none more so than this quote.

Because the terrible thing about becoming an adult is being forced to realize that absolutely nobody cares about us, we have to deal with everything ourselves now, find out how the whole world works.

This is a routine source of anger and sadness for me most days. But in some ways, it's the most satisfying.

Every time I pay my bills, cook a meal, or schedule an appointment, I'm giving the finger to that voice telling me I'm a lousy adult. Each completed to-do list item is me saying "fuck you, being an adult is tough but I'm doing it" to the world.

But car maintenance doesn't count. No one can handle that well unless they're a mechanic. Prove me wrong, I dare you.

February 23, 2021

I'm adding the phrase "it makes sense when you think about it" to my list of signs that someone is an ass. If someone drops this when talking with you, it sends the following messages:

  1. Some basic critical thinking will let you figure out this topic.
  2. I need to tell you this since you haven't given this topic any thought.
  3. I, unlike you, have thought about it and come to a logical conclusion.
  4. You should think next time and think more like me. Otherwise, you'll be wrong again.

It's an impressive, passive-aggressive way to call someone an unthinking idiot. It's even framed as offhand advice to give them plausible deniability.

My response to that is I have thought about it, but came to a different conclusion. We have different perspectives and sources of info, so that's not a surprise. But I am surprised this person's being such an ass about it.

February 20, 2021

A common conservative catchphrase I've heard, and agree with, is "freedom isn't free."

For example, freedom to travel isn't free. It's why our taxes go to roads, sidewalks, and public transport. These are investments in many of our freedoms, like:

  • Walking to the store
  • Driving to the gym
  • Catch a bus home from the bar when we're too broke and/or plastered for a cab

During a pandemic, the same logic applies to public health measures. If we want to regain the freedom to visit restaurants, gyms, and each other, we need to pay for it. We pay with masks, tests, vaccines, and the infrastructure to deliver and use them right. I'd argue we also pay through hand-washing and social distancing guidelines to slow the spread.

None of these are easy and cheap. But hey, freedom isn't free. If we can't make those payments, we won't be free to leave our homes that much longer.

February 18, 2021

There will always be folks, real or online, where engaging with them only leads to exhaustion. They could be too set in their ways, don't care about listening, or they simply want to exhaust you (known as sealioning).

An example of what ill-intentioned sealioning looks like on the topic of face and racism.

This may or may not be their intention. They could be good or bad people. I've probably been like that at different points in my life.

But the best solution is always walking away, for your own sake. This doesn't mean you don't keep learning and rethinking your position. But it's never because of the bad-faith arguers or the sealions.

Unless you're an emotional masochist. In which case, throw on that ball gag and head to the comments section.

February 17, 2021

One of my rules is I never trust my future self with needless temptation. An example of this is my 16GB private manga collection.

Why? My reading goals go out of the window when every volume of Eyeshield 21 is right there, waiting for me to read them for the fourth time. Keeping those comics out of easy reach, like on my tablet, is a big reason I've made good progress on my 2021 goal of 50+ books.

The temptation to add them back is always there, each day. But I need to keep it at bay for any hope of finishing.

Sorry, Hiruma.

February 14, 2021

After a serious discussion with my distinguished colleagues, we reached this conclusion: there must be a circle of Hell where you do Satan's chores.

These include cleaning his laundry, mopping blood off the hardwood floors, cooking meals of burnt flesh and hot sauce, and doing his taxes. At first, I wasn't sure if people did taxes in Hell. Then someone pointed out that there are arguably more taxes in Hell than Earth because taxes are Hell. If anything, Hell needs more people to handle everyone's taxes, including Satan's.

But one question remains: what circle of Hell does all this domestic labor happen? How far down the sinning scale is doing Satan's dusting or dropping off his library books?

More research is needed.

February 10, 2021

You'd think America would be in a constant uproar of outrage and grief knowing that thousands of painful yet preventable deaths had been hitting us for months. According to this article, the fact we aren't is a sign we're in collapse.

People suffering, dying, and protesting all around you, while you think about dinner. If you’re trying to carry on while people around you die, your society is not collapsing. It’s already fallen down.

Does this mean we, as individuals, aren't allowed to enjoy ourselves in a time of crisis?

Maybe it depends on how our enjoyment lines up with the crisis itself. In a pandemic, that's getting joy from overcrowded parties and in-person gatherings. It's clinging to normal in ways that sustain, or even worsen, the misery of those who are sick, unemployed, isolated, or in grief.

If a majority of Americans are using their privilege and status to act like nothing is wrong and this will "resolve itself" without any sacrifice on their part, then I'd agree with this article. Our society has already collapsed.

The still-increasing winter spike of deaths and cases, due to people gathering when they were told not to, seems to confirm it is.

February 7, 2021

A while back, I read something shocking: prisons use statistical data on third-grade reading levels to predict how many prison beds they need.

It seemed like one of those facts that's shocking due to not being well-known and revealing an ugly truth. Turns out I was wrong on both counts: it's a common political talking point, and it isn't true. But the article points out there's still a large connection between being able to read and dropping out or ending up in jail. So reading's importance can't just be ignored.

I write this both as a bookworm and as a cynic. As the latter, I know people will say "that specific connection is false, so we can ignore reading and education altogether!" It's using language that sounds critical to disguise support of inequality and privilege.

Language can be a bitch that way. It can slip by so many people yet drive society in so many different directions.

February 4, 2021

One book I'm reading looked at the myth of meritocracy. It pointed out one of its flaws that stuck with me: the idea that someone who believes they got their high status through a meritocracy feels justified in any further action. Even if it's harmful.

Let's put aside if meritocracy is a true part of America or something used to justify inequality. Instead, let's say someone who believes they rose on merit is willing to abuse their power. For example, they stack the deck in favor of their friends and family with things like access to influential networks, higher education, and specialized tutors. Isn't this willingness to abuse their merit a sign they lack the merit itself?

America's main response seems to be "no." If so, meritocracy would only apply to peoples' skills, not what they do with them. Only talent and power matter, even if someone uses them to set the world aflame.

That's institutional terror right there.

February 1, 2021

A microscopic bit of fame makes it exponentially harder to be happy without any. Even years after the fact. Especially when a pandemic forces most of us into a simple, quiet life as it destroys everyone else's.

But like many things in life, half of the solution is acknowledging the problem. So I'm leaving myself a reminder.

January 27, 2021

To my fellow manga readers out there, I ask this serious question: would Shinichi Sakurai and Hana Uzaki from "Uzaki-chan wants to Hang Out!" actually make a good couple?

It could be many things: the huge height difference, the childish personality, or the condescending attitude bordering on narcissism, but I don't see it. Uzaki strikes me more as an annoying cousin that never shuts up than a romantic partner.

The good news is if the series is popular enough, it will either never end or end on an ambiguous "they're kinda together but not quite" note. So they'll never get together and I'll be vindicated.

January 21, 2021

I recently finished "Ready Player Two," and I learned a few things about fiction writing. I learned books shouldn't have lengthy sections of:

  • World-building exposition that isn't woven into the story. Especially in a sequel where the world has already been built for the readers.
  • Excessive, unimportant trivia about, but not limited to, 70's teen flicks, Prince, or any Lord of the Rings middle earth-esque fantasy realm.
  • Introducing characters that look interesting and promise some fresh dynamics, when they're barely heard from afterward with no development.
  • Brooding over losing the woman you lost your virginity to. Most people, including the nerds in the book's target audience, get enough of that in their brains.

I'm glad I learned so much from this book. Now to find one that doesn't try too hard to (and not succeed at) being a Dan Brown novel.

January 18, 2021

It's easy to cling to old or outdated values. We could see ourselves as hypocritical, weak-minded, or opportunistic.

Do caterpillars feel this way when they become butterflies? Almost none of them do, at least according to caterpillar Twitter.

Change is natural, and we should embrace it. Even with vital things we thought would never change. Refusing it only holds us back.

We should at least try to be as good, if not better, than caterpillars. Especially since they still beat us at spinning silk and climbing walls.

January 14, 2021

Many white supremacists are rarely explicit in their goals of pushing non-white races below them. Much of that work was done by past (and maybe present) policies like redlining, the prison pipeline, over-policing, and underinvestment in many nieghborhood's welfare/education/health/infrastructure, to name a few.

One only needs to be against or indifferent to policies aiming to undo all these racism-caused inequalities to be racist. No matter how many "Black Lives Matter" signs are in your yard.