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Max Antonucci

Journalist turned full-time coder, part-time ponderer.


Personal quips and nonsensical snippets

Sometimes I want to write things that can't work as a blog post, I don't want to lose amid Twitter, or don't make any sense. For all these streams of conscious, I have my Notes. They have lots of colors to match how across the board they can get.

Keep scrolling to read my notes in order.

Note posted on December 7, 2021

I saw a dog sticking its head out a car window in New Haven, and for the first time, I asked myself "why do dogs do that?" A quick search brought me to an ABC news article that asked a zoologist this same question. Their answer was:

"Their head is jam-packed full of sensors, so when they stick their head out the window, they've got this great pressure of air moving at great speed over them, and it's a sensory overload."

So this is their version of us walking into a candle store and smelling everything we can. But it's even better since dogs can smell it all at once. I don't know if dogs can distinguish each smell, but do they need to?

Imagine smelling every single scented candle in a store at the same time. You couldn't pick out each candle's scent, but the total sum of scents you get...that would be an experience. It'd likely be overwhelming for some people and they'd have to stop smelling it. I'd likely get a headache and have to step outside.

Not dogs, though. They get a collective scent like that pushed in their face, they love it and keep smelling as long as possible. Even knowing there are likely some bad scents mixed in, like cigarettes or folks leaving the gym.

That is hardcore smelling skill and passion on display there. Dogs poking their heads our car windows aren't only cute, they're olfactory badasses.

Note posted on November 29, 2021

I find it dark yet funny when someone's response to "life in America is so expensive/stressful/unequal" is "move somewhere else." It implies there's no possible way for America to NOT be expensive/stressful/unequal. It will forever be terrible for its citizens. You're better off leaving than trying to improve things.

Bonus points if this response comes from an "America is amazing and free and you should love it" person. Put those two thoughts together and there's some amazing cognitive dissonance.

"America is great, it's the greatest country in the world! But if you don't want a burnt-out life hanging by a thread, give up and move somewhere capable of doing better."

Note posted on November 23, 2021

If there is a God, I’ll have many angry questions.

The first one would be "why the fuck are seeded grapes a thing?! Are they only there to punish distracted grocery shoppers? Because if not, they're pure blasphemy."

It wouldn't be my most important question. It would only be my first one.

Note posted on November 19, 2021

"Men Explain Things To Me" is a book full of great ideas and research, but one quote stuck out to me more than others.

...the ideas that a husband has the right to beat his wife and that it’s a private matter are not returning anytime soon. The genies are not going back into their bottles. And this is, really, how revolution works. Revolutions are first of all of ideas.

Revolutions start as ideas against a status quo, and we can't stop them afterward. That may be why those in power put so much focus on how America's revolution against the British monarchy. Citizens won't revolt if they believe their country's existence is still a "revolution." Even if the revolution is long over and there are now other things they may want to push back against. You won't look for a new partner if you've deluded yourself into thinking you're still with your first one.

It's so ironic, the idea of past and present revolutions keeping future revolutions at bay.

Note posted on November 14, 2021

I've been on a forever search for a certain webcomic. In it, a struggling writer enters a kind of hotel and meets three alternate versions of herself. They include:

  1. One that did jail time, went blonde and is a published non-fiction writer.
  2. One that fell in love in college, does indie film work but is a loud, bitter cynic.
  3. One in the corporate world that's professional and more "in tune" with societal norms.

I apologize if I got any of these details wrong. It's been so long since I read it last, I want to read it again, but I cannot find it online!

But it also gets me thinking about some alternate versions of me that may be out there.

  1. One that stuck to journalism, works at a newspaper and is being broken down by stress and roommates.
  2. One that also started a lifelong relationship early and had kids. Their career never quite took off but still enjoys their family.
  3. One that moved across the country and went a bit "crazy." Each day I live out loud but struggle to get any long-term plans together.
  4. One that didn't turn down that CIA referral from my sophomore year. I'm spying on/impersonating/poisoning Russian operatives throughout Europe. Plus I have an earring and tattoo, although I'm not sure what it's a tattoo of.
  5. One that can fly around and shoot lasers from my eyes. I hide from society outside of an occasional explosive attack to stir things up.

I hope I can meet my own alternative selves in a hotel like that someday.

Note posted on November 11, 2021

I believe each person has many things that, if someone does it, that person get crossed off their list. You can tell a lot about someone's personality, values, and even past trauma by their list. For example, someone physically bullied may cross off someone the second they get violent.

I have many of my own reasons to cross someone off my list. But the most frequent one? Someone being a mix of dismissive, condescending, and smug towards me. I can handle one, two if I'm in a good mood or they're an authority figure.

But all three? Good luck recovering from that. If I don't get basic respect, you don't get my time.

Note posted on November 3, 2021

My endless struggle to be an adult has hit a new obstacle: hacked, customized Pokemon games. They are the perfect distraction for someone in my niche group:

  • Loves Pokemon
  • Hates the formula in most all Pokemon games
  • Wants Rare Candy cheat codes to avoid level grinding
  • Enjoys being able to speed up the boring parts, like random encounters and routine dialogue
  • Doesn't want to spend $60 on an old game but with shinier graphics
  • Likes turning on emulator filters so it looks like I'm playing an oil painting

Learning the patch process for many of these ROMs was a hassle, but was worth it. I already have Pokemon Gaia, Pokemon Blazed Glazed, and Pokemon Ultra Shiny Gold Sigma queued up.

Bizarre names aside, I am both excited to play and hopeful I don't get too sucked into them. I have a plane trip approaching, and "I was hunting a Ralts at double speed" isn't the best excuse for not preparing.

Note posted on October 29, 2021

Are you still struggling to think of scary Halloween costumes for this year, and need fast ideas? I have some suggestions.

  • An unexpected $250 medical bill you got after a routine blood test.
  • A long CVS receipt.
  • Any phone call you need to do for making an appointment or canceling a membership.
  • Senator Joe Manchin or Senator Kyrsten Sinema. Bonus points if you trick or treat with someone raising a newborn.
  • A shipment of COVID vaccines from a southern state that's unused.
  • Chewbacca.
  • A library book that's two years overdue.
  • A young person with no teeth and wrinkled skin. It's a reminder of both our fragile youth and unavoidable mortality.
  • The grim reaper. It's a similar kind of reminder above, but it lets people unable to cope with these truths stay in denial.
  • A giant Almond Joy candy bar.
  • For couples, dress as newlyweds that passive-aggressively bicker the whole night. For bonus points, act out the dawning terror of being in a horrible marriage for your friends later in the night.
  • Same as the above, but also covered in cat hair that won't come out. The cat hair is scarier since deciding the custody of pets makes the escape of divorce feel farther away.
  • A giant banana with two maracas.

Have a happy Halloween, everyone!

Note posted on October 25, 2021

When it comes to my "read later" list or coding articles, it's always in one of two states.

  1. I have so many articles saved, I'm scared to start reading them and keep procrastinating.
  2. After a marathon reading session, my list is empty and I don't want to look at it again until it again feels too long.

I've heard "a good routine is important to have but hard to build" so often, it feels like a productivity cliche. But I'm realizing it's a cliche for a reason. Going between these two extremes is not sustainable, enjoyable, or cholesterol-free.

You don't eat a whale all at once, or by ignoring it and hope it eats itself. You go one bite at a time.

You also wonder why you're eating a whale in the first place. Are whales particularly tasty? Do they have essential vitamins and nutrients? Could they be a solution to ending world hunger? Is this the secret reason why Florence, Oregon blew up a whale with dynamite in the 1970s?

The point is, a slow and steady article reading routine is important for my work future. For my knowledge, skillset, digestive tract, and for all the whales that wash ashore.

Note posted on October 17, 2021

I saw this yard sign in New Haven and felt some relief. I don't need to be scared of this dog. I only need to know it's there.

A yard sign reading "be aware of the dog."

I am aware of you, doggo. And like all doggos, I respect you. I love you.

Note posted on October 14, 2021

The tech industry has many problems. Too many to list here. The big ones are diversity, bro culture, burnout, and people catching on to how we microchip them. But I'll focus on the diversity one here.

Maybe you're like me, a cisgender person that has never been personally affected by all this. If so, then you, like me, have a lot of research to do. I'd recommend these three resources:

As an added bonus, check out this cutesy romantic-comedy manga about high school students with various gender identities at a cross-dressing maid cafe. It's adorable and educational!

Also, when in doubt: stop talking, start listening.

Note posted on October 8, 2021

The question shouldn't be if something is already legal or not. The question should be if we're comfortable with society makes it legal.

How would you feel if murder was made legal, and people dismissed any claims of it being wrong? I can imagine someone saying "I didn't break the law at any point! It was within my legal rights to slit that person's throat." I can also imagine myself slowly backing away from that person, then running away from them.

This thought is brought to you buy a Planet Money episode about offshore companies in tax havens.

Note posted on October 3, 2021

At a corn maze this weekend, my group got a few maps of the maze. We could use that map to find all 30 hidden markers, or to get through the maze faster.

Getting a map before entering a maze seems counter-intuitive. Isn't part of the fun the aimless wandering until you somehow reach the exit?

One child felt the same. Over the corn stalks, we heard one parent say “the map is what keeps us safe.”

The child yelled back, “the map is what keeps it from being fun.”

We yelled "amen." Smart kid.

Note posted on September 30, 2021

If you have a desk, pick a random item on it. Let's say it's a penguin plushie. What if that plushie was not real, but a consistent hallucination? In the end, how different is it from something real? You see and interact with it the same way as a real thing. Things would only change if someone else was there and said there's no penguin plushie on your desk.

But if you spent so much time thinking it was real, it wouldn't be easy to think otherwise. You may call them crazy and insist that thing is real.

What about if a group of humans in a town all hallucinated a giant penguin plushie? But someone visiting from outside the town said they couldn't see or interact with it. The town would call that person crazy instead of seeing they suffered from a group psychosis. So in that town, how different is that imagined giant penguin plushie from a real one?

Is reality about something existing outside of our perceptions? Or is it more about a kind of collective awareness and acknowledgment? If so, do collective thoughts, beliefs, and perceptions shape reality as much as reality itself? Or even more so?

It's an empowering thought. Then think of how those power can use this to manipulate and control others. That tilts it more towards terrifying. That's why we should only manipulate reality to make others see penguin plushies. It'd make the world improve at a slow but steady rate over the years.

Note posted on September 25, 2021

You know all the random background and text color combinations you see in my site? The ones in the page headers, or notes like the one you're now reading? I based each one on different Pokemons' color palletes.

There are twenty four different Pokemon behind all these colors. Are you a big enough nerd to guess them all for a grand prize of nothing?

You can see them all in one of my website's style partials. But you should know that I chose them all and can't even name half of them when I see them here. So good luck!